Peaceful Memories

Peaceful Memories

Monday, August 27, 2012

I like ... learning?

    The past 8 months have been crazy. I got married to my adorable husband, and life has just kept blazing down it's usual chaotic trail. It's strange, I feel like my brain has made a shift as to where I hold my stress. Before I got married (which was a respectfully long time-span in my short-ish life), it was all based on my relationship status. "Who cares if school is stressful? I can deal with it! Who cares if my boss is a jerk sometimes, I just know that if I had that special someone to come home to at night, I wouldn't even care!"
   Naive or not, that's what I believed. Now, to defend that former cute-naive self, I think there is truth in those thoughts. Now that I am happily married, that worry mechanism in my brain about finding love really has turned off. I have found relationship contentment in my Sean, and I'm excited by the prospect of working to make our relationship better for the rest of forever. So happy girl, is the stress gone? Sorry... no. It's like my brain is so used to being worried about something, that it's not going to sit down and take contentment quietly.
    I'm blogging mostly in an attempt to sort out my thoughts, so here is the situation: The workplace stresses me out! I feel like in order to be a real adult, you're supposed to have this drive and determination to get to the top that I honestly don't have with my yellow fun-loving let's-all-just-be-friends mentality. Life really does "get real" as they say once you are no longer a single entity. Families really do need to be provided for. This takes a certain amount of money every month, this takes energy and commitment, and it takes mental stability so that you can emotionally support the people you love. While trying to do this, so is EVERYONE else. We live in a competitive world, and even if our cute little families are so small, the world is so big.
    So someone tell me please, is there a job out there that let's you do something you're good at, that you enjoy, with people who are going to respect you? And also at the same time, is there a job that calculates for human error? I have always desired to do my best, but some days my best is better than others. I don't think we want to admit our flaws as a human race, but boy do they exist! We get tired, spaced out, hungry, achy, emotional, and sometimes lose motivation (not all the time of course, but these things happen once in a while).
  Some of you or all of you might say "Well yeah, this is pretty common, most people hate their jobs" But here is the thing with me, I never did until I started my career, and it got even harder after I got married. Is there a link? Maybe, I don't know.
   To end this on a positive note, I believe that life with always throw you curves and challenges, but generally speaking, God wants us to live happy productive lives, and if we work hard and have faith, then he will provide a way for us to do that. I just need to find the strength to hold up my end of the deal, even on days when I am so painfully human. So as the chinese would say Jia You (add oil!).

Monday, July 25, 2011

I like LOST

    I couldn't think of what to write a blog about, but I was thinking it's time I write another one before I forget that I have a blog. So, naturally, as I'm sitting here watching the 5th season of "Lost", that's the first thing that came to my mine.
    I graduated from the University of Utah in 2010 with a degree in Elementary Education. The previous year, I spent most of my time student teaching. I was placed in two different schools: Oakwood Elementary in Granite, and Wasatch Elementary. In both schools, I helped teach 6th graders. I had so much fun with them, and every kid was so unique and needy in their own way, but oh boy let me tell you, I quickly discovered that teaching was no easy task. 
   When I finished a full day of teaching, I would come home to my apartment, and my brother, who lived with me at the time, and I started watching LOST. My friend introduced me to it. We watched a couple of episodes at his house, and I was hooked! My brother and I laugh no about hos months of our lives were sucked into the vortex that is Lost. I remember when the final episode of season six was over, my brother posed on facebook "I just finished Lost: So does this mean I have to get a life now??" I laugh because that's pretty much what it is. For the single person with nothing to do but their work, it's the best way to forget that you're kind of a loser at the moment. 
    I think we need to be careful about worldly distraction, and try not to spend too much time doing things that aren't helping us become a better person, or helping someone else, but come on, sometimes we're just tired and need to escape. In my opinion, escaping to the island on Lost is the best!! This post will in no way make anyone a better person, but at least one will 
understand my borderline obsession now :) 

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I Like Change :)

     This is my first night of internet access at my new apartment in West Jordan Utah. In the last three years, I have moved four times. To me, this seems like a lot, however, the last place I lived, I felt like I was there for way too long, and I just wasn't in love with it. So I decided I needed a change.
     When I was a kid, I resisted change just like we resisted broccoli. When my mom would rearrange the living room furniture, it would make me want to cry! I have always had a hard time moving on from things: High School, Children's Choir, past relationships, classes in school, wards I've been in, the list could go on! But if there is one thing I have learned through the constant changes of life, is that we need to not only accept it, but embrace it.
     There is a song by Billy Joel that has a line that I really like, it goes "The good old days weren't always good, and tomorrow ain't as bad as it seems!" I think that's true. On my mission I was forced to move around a lot. For a sister, I had more areas than some Elders ended up having. From this experience, I realized that no matter where I go, there is always something good waiting for me in the future. Instead of fearing it and dreading it, I slowly was forced out of my ways, and learned to be excited for the new people I would meet, and the places I could see.
     This new move is a time of new hope for me. I am reminded to get excited about the little things, even something like, instead of the street out my window, I see a big tree! So life can keep on keepin on, bringing the changes it always will. I'm sure it will continue to be a great ride :)

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I like....

     As a first year teacher I have learned many things this year. One of the things that has stood out to me though, is how it seems like our young people do not know how to be positive about anything. There is so much complaining and moaning, and lack of appreciation for life. We are given so much by our parents, our friends, even our country, and we fail to see it.
     I decided that in order to add some positive energy to the universe, or at least to my small circle of influence, by titling my blogs "I like..." Each time I have something today, I'll focus it on an aspect of life that i like. You can turn anything into a positive experience, even if it takes you a long time to do so. I've had my share of heartache, tears, and confusion, but I know that your life is what you make it, and the attitudes that you choose to adopt.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

And so it begins

Well here I am blogging, I haven't done this in years. Who knows if I'll be consistent, who knows if I'll have any followers, but hey, everyone needs a creative outlet, and I have been watching too much TV lately. It's a beautiful day in May, I only have 9 days of school left, and the sun is finally shining after what seems like weeks of constant rain! I am feeling really happy and grateful for my life. There are so many opportunities to laugh, to love, to soak up the sunshine, and to blast your music in your car :) So I intend to share these good moments with the world, or at least myself.